During my teen years, I can't wait to turn 20-ish. Why? For the simple reason that "adults" are capable of doing anything they want, but I forgot that getting older opens the door to a lot of responsibilities and innumerable life-changing decisions. I guess I can take the responsibilities, but the life-changing decisions ... errrrr I don't know. :(

The decisions that I should make are not as simple as choosing which clothes to wear and what shoes match my clothes nor it is as easy as choosing which movie to watch.

All I know now is I wanna go back home to the land where public transportation is not a problem, a land where pollution is present, a land where you can hear cars honk and the land I am familiar with and I can't wait for that day! Spending a 1 or 2-month vacation there is ideal. After the 2 months, errrr I don't know (again). A friend asked if going back home would really help me. She also said the US might not be sweeter the second time around. This made me laugh! She has a good point. Saying good byes the second time would really be hard. I really believe that I should go back home just for a vacation and then see if US will be sweeter the second time around. I hope it'll be :)

Why is future uncertain? I wish I could have a glimpse on my future to help me decide. I know that sometimes our mistakes should teach us a lesson, but I don't think that this is the right time to make mistakes. It is my future that is at stake. My mind is just full of questions like why, when, where, what and who (hahahaha).

I could use a dream or a genie or a wish To go back to a place much simpler than this

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